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Friday, 27th October 2000
Whoever sed the whole E/N scene is hard to break into? Look out Stile, here comes AngstyThink, I just got 26 hits yesterday.

Anyway, updates will be less often in future. Ive got alot on my plate at the moment. I might get some of the links (eyes left) actually linking to sections that actually exist, as at the moment everyone just thinks its cause im a sloppy webmaster. Well i am a sloppy webmaster but thats not why the links are broken. Go check out survivorer but, thats where ill be doing all my updates from now on (nothing makes you look more talented then u are, quite like hanging around super talented ppl)

I also made it onto the C/O network. Another good directory for fresh, original, EN sites. Go have a look.

I will survivorer. Seriously guys. This is going to be a riot. Go check it out. Ill be in it and so will some other less worthy individuals, trying vainly to oust me from my destiny as THE Survivorer.
NOTE: Ignore the picture of me with the dopey grin on my face. Truth is i'm mean as fuck and u should feel intimidated by my E/N prowess (see above: 26 hits yesterday). Ph34r m3.


This is a webring i joined up to. DE/NIED. Clever name and a good idea. Its designed to support fledgling EN sites.

The actual webring panel looks fairly unco but. I wish i could fix up the link colors on it. Its a good ring and its got some very good, under-recognised sites on it... but im gunna hafta find a better way to link it. Its all yahoos fault. Yahoo are so crap.

Tuesday, 24th October 2000
I generally had a bad day yesterday...

The fat chick at the deli down the road wouldn't let me get a coke when she realised i was short 5 cents. I even made a big show and dance of checking my wallet and emptying my pockets trying to find the extra 5 cents, but the big fat bitch just stood their staring first at my change on the counter and then at me, with a blank look on her fat face. Sort of like she was going to cry because nothing in her training told her what to do in such a case. Or maybe it was a look of disbelief that this skinny little white boy thinks he can get away with not paying the full price. At anyrate she made me feel pretty embarresed, and exacerbated my shitty mood.

I spent way too much of my afternoon explaining to my brother why im failing uni and why i don't care and it doesnt matter. Actually it does matter. But i cant help it. Fuckit, i dont wanna think about it so i just decided im not going to write about it.

I entertained the thought of running over a couple of primary school kids on scooters with limp bizkit tee shirts, baggy shorts and smug looks on their faces. (Arent misplaced modifiers fun! I meant the kids were ridding scooters and wearing limp bizkit teeshits and that i was going to run them over, not that i was going to run them over with a scooter whilst wearing a limp bizkit tee shirt.)

I was hit by a wave of depression yesterday morning when i realised the sensation of going round and round in stupid little circles, had permeated my whole life.

My little Gemini is full of a family of big huntsman spiders. The other day, the spider that was clearly the patriach of the nest, was cheeky enuff to run across the inside of my wind screen. Scared the fuck out of me.

I want to be the embodiment of the peaceful little monk that lives in harmony and is at one with nature, but i just dont think i can do it. Im going to have them gassed. There freaking me out. Its my car, and i decide who or what makes a home in it. Of course, then i inevitably do too much thinking just before i set the insect bomb to kill them. Ill probably start to personify my family of vagrant spiders. I start imaginining spiders talking to one another, desperatently, as the gas spreads throughtout the car. I imagine little tiny cute spiders calling out to mummy spider, and suddenly i cant bring myself to kill them.

My big problem is i think too much. Id get along much better with the world if i didnt think so much.

I hate all you stupid little try hard retard revolutionaries that think Globalisation is a bad word. In fact im sick of everyone that thinks Globalisation means "Big Companies doing bad stuff", from the try hard activists to the mainstream media.

Friday, 20th October 2000
Im angry. There are alot of stupid ppl to put down and so little time and means to do so...

If u have been following the middle east thing u might have heard about Hizbullah Guerillas starting up a propaganda campaign thoughout the middle east, aimed at Israel. The campaign involves a TV ad, in which they associate with Jews with the Nazi's. The add features a Star Of David followed by an equals sign and then a swastika.

Im not really sure what the campaign is trying to insinuate, but im sure its stupid. Are they saying that the Jews were in kahoots with the Nazis and therefore should be punished? Or are they saying that if the Nazis hated and persecuted the Jews then maybe there is a reason why Arabs should be trucking the Jews off to concentration camps? If its the former, then, enough sed i think. That sort of stupidity really speaks for itself. If the latter, then it would be wise to note that this time around the Jews have Helicopters and guns where as, u Arabs have sling shots. Trying to persecute a minority works way better when the minority don't have fucking big guns.

"Oh no its the palestinians. Not the palestinians!! Someone save us from the Palestinians! Look at the size of those rocks their carrying!! Oh no please dont put me in a concentration camp and gas me Mr Arab."
Unfortunately i can't speak for the Hizbullah, since i don't think there quite as poorly equiped as the Palestinians. Needless to say, even if they do have guns as big as Israels, im sure any miltant group stupid enough to try and so openly, associate the Jews with the Nazi party, in a way intended to reflect negatively on the Jews, will soon find a way to shoot themselves in the face.

Damnnit i had some other stuff i was going to write about but i lost my train of thought.

mmm, go check this out. Its got to be the best idea for a website ive seen in a long time. Its Survivorer, the reality TV game show set on a tropical Island, all on a website. 16 contestants will post to an EN website about whatever they like and periodically one player will get voted off untill there is one player left who will win $200. I dont know what the exact rules of the game will be, but it sounds to me like it will be hill-airy-arse.

Wednesday, 18th October 2000
Who heard Stile on Comedy World? Take Note Kids: Internet Celebrities make bad radio.

Shit this site is funny. U might need to be familiar with IRC to really understand it fully, but even so.... piss funny.

This site is the best Satirical Site ever. Back when it started it was such a classy production you really needed to look hard and have a think about it to pick up the satire. It used to look just like any other facist website. They've dumbed it down a tiny bit to make it more obvious that its just a joke, but its still extremly funny.

oooooooo.... hardcore cartoons. This site has full scanned copies of all the greatest hardcore pr0n comic books from Japan and America.

Make sure u boot it up in netscape (why the fuck would u be using IE anyway?) and disable javascript. The Manga Outpost webmaster uses Javascript to force u to click the banners before u can get to the goodies.

Man i wish i could draw like that. Id never need to vist another porn site in my life.

Monday, 16th October 2000
Holy fuck I hate this world.

I hate my family, I hate my body, I hate humanity.

I hate the fact that I'm too scared to tell a woman that I love her and want to spend the rest of my life with her. I hate the fact that I am too scared to get a life.

Oh no wait thats not me, thats Stile, I on the other hand, know that u know that i know im a fucking looser geek without having to waste your time telling u all about it. Why the fuck would i be sitting here clacking away at html if i had a life? Instead id much rather just post some porn, get on my soap box, rant for a bit, maybe post some mp3s and by and large be content with my humdrum existence.

MMMmmm so whom we rooting for in the middle east thing? Im backing the Israelites to smite the dune coons at 4:1 odds. Ehud Barak has big guns and Arrafat only has a wet tea towel, and a few fucking million crazy Muslims on a holy Jihad. On second thoughts ill back the muslims at 2:1 odds, even though my sentimental favorites remains the jews. Ill take all bets placed before the 20th of October.

On the subject of Stile, those who have been following Stile's links to Joe Rogan might have read a bit of what the news radio star has been saying about Stile. Aparently the 2 have become a bit chummy, however im not sure what Stile would think about this post from Rogan regarding "The Stile Projects" profitability...

"I mean there has NEVER in history been a forum where a motherfucker like Stile can never leave his house, yet reach over 80,000 people a fucking day and make HUNDREDS of THOUSANDS of dollars showing you fucked up videos and twisted commentary, and do it all with NO FUCKING CENSORSHIP WHAT-SO-EVER."
           Joe Rogan

Wow. Hundreds and thousands of dollars? He must be selling alot of those T-Shirts and convincing alot of insecure teenagers they need a bigger cock and to click on the banners offering appropriate help. Funny though that Stile should be making so much money, out of pretending to be so hardcore and such a counter-cultural icon. The hardcore underground are intrested only in making money too are they? Gee. Not really that much different to the money obsessed mainstream.

Stile may not give a shit about cultivating and maintaining he's counter-culture, god-like, hardcore image, but if he cares about making money (i'd say he does) then he'd better start being more selective about who he talks to and hide hes financial success a bit better. Nothing sez mainstream, commercial, sell out quite like someone desperately trying to sell something.

Friday, 13th October 2000
I spent my afternoon feeding slaters to a family of Daddy Long Leg Spiders. No really. I spent a WHOLE afternoon chucking these little crawly insects into a big web of spiders and watching the spiders spin their thread about and then realise with some disgust that Slaters taste like shit (well i assume thats what they were thinking, the Spiders certainly didn't look in much of a hurry to eat the Slaters after a closer inspection of what they had hurriedly wrapped up into a ball and paralysed). Normally i would have been overcome with a wave of sympathy for the pathetic looking insect, convulsing for its life, but this afternoon i was feeling small, and my fun with the Spiders was just the ticket. I felt a little better after that.

Someone make me a banner image instead of the shit i made by myself. Gradually im loosing all my allusions of artistic granduer, so some clever dick with some fancy software make me a logo, a mascot, some images to use on the site... anything.

Would someone please tell me WTF has happened to Russia? For pete sake... someone bring back the Cold War, incite the commies, DO SOMETHING. This is a tragedy. How did such a once proud nation, become such a shit hole? I mean, Australian submarines might make a little bit of noise here and there, but atleast we can keep the damn things afloat.

In a strange show of stupidly patriotic paranoia, the Rusian high command decided, for reasons unknowable, that come hell of high water, no damn faggotty little brit or uppity little yank is going to be fishing our men out of the depths of the Barents Straight. Instead they were happy to piss fart around as their men drowned. Like fucking small children learning to swim, that dont want to get their head wet, the Russian rescue team splashed about on the surface.

Now if Stalin were still about? Wellll, he'd have had a bit of the ole duck diving gear and had the whole damn submarine to the surface in 10 minutes. In fact if push came to shove and I were one of lads stuck down their with my comrades, i reckon i would have been swimming for the surface. Bone breaking pressure be damned. In fact what frigging difference does 100 meters make anyway? I mean its not THAT far and its all upwards.

Anyway, the point is the Norwegians waltzed in and in the end made the Russians look prity fucking ordinary. Pootin would have been much better off, biting the bullet, accepting that the Brits nor the Yanks care to spy on rusty, sinky old Russsian submarines and just get someone better equiped to to come in and save some lives. Would have been much less embarresing in the long run. MMMMMM... I just had an idea for a regular section on the site: "NYET! NYET NYEEEETTT!! Where have all the Comrades gone?: A documentation of the demise of the Russian State"

Monday, 9th October 2000
Okaaaaaaaay i admit it. I want hits. I realise now that writing about myself, to myself is not all i thought it was going to be. And i dont just want a few hits... i want a fuckload of em. I want to really loose myself amougst masses and masses of people coming to this site to find out about when i last had a wank and how good it was. It seems to me there is a strange paradoxical relationship between the number of people going to your site, and the degree to which u feel u can be honest and do anything at all with the medium. Its much easier to let go of ones insecurities to 10,000,000 ppl then it is to let go of ones insecurities to half a dozen family and friends. I would like to do more with the medium. So i need more hits. Suffice to say i bet stile wasnt always stile. I bet stile didnt truly get honest untill he started to get as seriously popular as he is now. Ahhh well. I spose ill just keep pestering Stile et al for links and ill earn my hits like everyone else has to: with a reputation for original and sparkling content.

Nahhhhhhh fuck that. Stay tuned for when i upload the best of my best porn. NOTE: Not porno pictures taken by me, of me, or owned by me, but stuff ive scabbed off the rest of the internet in my last 3 years on the internet. Remember kids, copyright only applies on the internet when it infringes on YOUR rights.

Thursday, 6th October 2000
Jezzus the whole goddamn Coalition give me the shits right at the moment. That Philby Ruddock shits me to the hilt. When did Australia stop being a nation of generous happy go lucky types that would bend over backwards to help out complete stangers? When did we become such a mob of spoilt, selfish, immature cunts that elect and support the policies of a governemnt that would put ppl like Philip Ruddock in a port-folio as sensitive and as important as Reconciliation or Immigration? We let that ignorant little shit, Ruddock, show the world just how backward thinking we have become with his anecdotes about Aboriginals and the wheel. And where the fuck does that weeny, whiney, Olympian Bandwagon riding, walking eyebrow, we begrudgingly call our Prime Minister, get off giving Public Schools so much damn money? Fuck giving Parents a choice. NO ONE should have the right to a better education just because they have money. Period. Private Schools shouldn't get a brass fucking razoo from the Australian Tax Payer. The whole fucking reason that rich cunts pay more tax then the rest of us, is because they have a moral obligation to give back to the nation. So, just because the rich pay more tax doesn't mean their children are entitled to a better quality of education. Rich Kids are entitled to and should be given the same level of Education as the rest of us: and that level i might add, ought to be much higher then it currently is, particularly so in regional Australia and in the Teritary education sector. The very fact that Private schools are actually able to compete so successfully with government Schools, is indicative of the poor level of funding in our Public schools. Public Schools should have so much friggin money that private schools shouldn't stand a chance. So where does the assault from this government on low to middle class Australians end? It seems the GST was just the begining of the problems for poor Australians. Pumping money into private schooling is yet another of the Coalitions cheeky little privatisation ploys. They've done it with health care, they've done it with telecommunications and now the're at it again, this time with Education. Pritty soon the Government will pull out of Governing and outsource the whole goddamn fucking lot to some private mob.

In the wake of the patriotic fervour surrounding the recently departed 5 ring circus, let me just say a little something about this little Wombat with the big arse everyone is ranting about. Fatso is owned by Channel 7. Channel 7 are a commercial entity. Consequently, dont hold fatso up as your beacon of anti-capitalist ideals. Fatso is not the Battlers Prince. Fatso is a money making venture. In the long run fatso is no better, no worse then Syd, Ollie and Dickhead. Fatso is was just a clever marketing ploy from those experts in the trade... Channel 7. When fatso comes out in soft plush toys, pencils and pencil cases, rulers and fuck knows what else... u remember how Roy looked at the camera and heralded Fatso as the Battlers Prince. The Battlers Prince or Kerry Packers Prince? U decide.

MMmmmmm i wonder if perhaps i ought to keep my weBLOGs a bit more concise and snappy and a little less verbose?