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ExistAngst Saturday, 24th Feburary 2001	2 barks for yes 1 for no, ok? ????
I have only a few rules when it comes to sex.... Rape is bad. Sex doesnt just have to be for procreation. Sex that will necassarily cause physical or emotional problems is bad. There is no such thing as "un-natural sex" Everything else flows from that.... Consequently, I have no problems with people having sex with animals. Personally, its not my thing, but if other ppl see fit to root dogs or horses or whatever then i have no problems with that. We kill and eat animals. Yet its illegal to fuck em? Put aside your ten commandments for a second and use your brain. We are allowed to KILL animals for sport and food, and yet we can't fuck em for fun? We do all sorts of painful experiments on animals in the name of science, and yet its illegal to give an animal pleasure? Of course consent is still important to some ppl, and while a dog can't say yes or no, I imagine it can still make its feelings known. A dog that doesn't like what your doing, will bite you. A dog that likes what your doing will wag its tail etc etc. I think too many ppl have their opinions clouded by their own sexual preferences. Just because ure not turned on by the thought of sticking your dick up a dobbermans poop shoot, doesn't mean its not a perfectly honest sexual tendancy for others. I think ppl just need some time to adjust. Homosexuality was the peak of un-natural 50 years ago, today its kinda hip. Its only a matter of time before fucking animals is looked at the same way. Hmmm i'm starting to wonder if its at all possible for me to make it out of this post, without seeming very VERY weird. Sexuality is all in our heads. We find attractive what we do, because of the memes that have made it into our heads and allowed us to survive as a species. But homosexuality and bestiality could just be manifestations of a new direction in the survival of the human race. Or they could just be the ultimate statement that some ppl WILL NOT be owned by their memes or their genes. Theres a very intresting quote in the Perth city center, on the wall of ANZAC House. "they only deserve freedom, who are prepared to defend it" Intresting idea. Pity its such a crock of shit. Everyone deserves freedom, irrespective of their willingness to fight for it. Granted that sometimes u might need to make a fist to achieve freedom. But freedom is an inalienable right. Its not a privledge that u earn for being willing to hit somebody. Sometimes it might just be that u have to make a fist to claim that right. Or maybe i am mistaking freedom with peace. Possibly if u want to claim your right to freedom, u might have to be ready to fight for it. But if u want peace u will definitely have to be ready to put down your guns, sticks and stones and compromise. Take for example the situation in the middle east. The cause of the problem in the middle east, is that EVERYONE is champing at the bit to defend their "freedom". And yet as a result, there is neither freedom NOR peace. Maybe a more apt saying would be... "if u want freedom, you might need to bear arms to defend it, but if u want peace u might need to put down your guns and compromise" There is no freedom without peace and there is no peace without freedom. There is no peace while there is war. It therefore follows that there is no freedon while there is war. Its all well and good to say that those that refuse to defend it, do not deserve freedom, but i would tend to say that "Those that refuse to compromise, will not achieve freedom", and i would probably tend to think that EVERYONE derserves freedom irrespective of whether the're prepared to defend it. The ppl of israel, while perfectly ready to defend their freedom, aren't willing to compromise for it. They've shown that by voting a dickhead like Sharon for their Prime Minister, who has stated many times, he wont be giving so much as an inch in meetings with Yassar Arrafat.
ExistAngst Wednesday, 21st February 2001	Stilesque ????
I honestly cannot think of anything worth writing at the moment. Maybe ill just write for a while and hope something comes to mind mid-sentence. So here i sit, on the brink of a new university semester. Alot of the hard dicipline work in front of me and very little of it behind me. Im doing 2 units this semester. Half of what i did last semester. I figured it best to slash my work load since last semester i failed almost all my units. Well not almost.. i DID fail all my units, but by some sort of stupid dumb luck my unit coordinator guy decided to give me a supplementary assesment, one last chance to prove im not a complete waste of time at university. If i perform as badly as i did last semester, in this semester, then Murdoch kicks me out. Bah... as if anyone could possibly fail as bad as i did in 2 consecutive semesters. Particularly given that my workload has been halved. Still, if it were that cut and dried, i wouldnt be trying to convince myself of that would I? Jezzus Christ, who cares Angsty? Your going to fail uni again... sheesh theres no medal for failure so shut the fuck up and write something intelligent. Hmmm i think i might be getting sick of Angstythink. Im sure ill get my enthusiasm back when my little bout of depression subsides. I think mostly my depression stems from my mums recent attack on my relationship making skills. Last night she asked my why i didnt go out more often or have a girlfriend..... EVER in all my 19 years. I dont know what it is that makes me depressed: did my mum rip from my conciousness the thin, comforting, veil of cognitive dissonance that assured me i dont need a girlfriend or a social life? Or does it just depress me that as a 19 year old my mum still always has somthing to say about how im managing my life? I also wonder if pr0n is doing any sort of long term damage to my brain. Yeah thats nice Angsty man... your a looser. Congrats. Now write something funny for these ppl. Im getting sick of making kebabs. I dont know y im always such a conscientious sap. I worked 2 hours of unpaid overtime the other night, and i do so pritty much every single Saturday evening. Fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuck that. I used to think it was cause i was just naturally dodgey and that it simply takes me longer to do things that other ppl do quicker. I still know thats the case... but from now on im going to stop compensating for it by working unpaid overtime. Next Saturday im really going to slacken up. The monday moring ppl are REALLY going to know i dont give a fuck anymore. From now on im going to sail as close the wind as i can manage. Im going to walk that fine line between employment and unemployment. Either that or im going to demand a pay rise for all the extra shit i do at work. All right that does it... im outta here. U wanna winge about crap then be my guest... just dont expect ppl, or your alter-ego to give a crap. Wow. This is the first really Stilesque rant i've ever had. Go me. I saw the first episode of Survivor II last night. Ive had to remind myself more then a couple of times that I wasn't ACTUALLY IN the original Survivor.... i was in the E/N parody of it: Survivorer. Just a note to Americans and any ignorant Australians: the Mars Bar "!, as Jeff Probst, the Survivor host, quite rightly suggested, is in fact traditional Aboriginal bush tucker. The Witchetty Grub (the large maggoty looking thing) on the other hand, was just placed on the wheel as a lifeline to one lucky contestant.
ExistAngst Wednesday, 14th February 2001	LOL @ j00 Jews!!! ????
* Now talking in #israel * Topic is 'Didn't you people notice the maturity of people on IRC? :).' your all fucking retards for voting Ariel Shiron.... there will be NO peace now j00 f3wels.... the doon coons are going to keep throwing stones and ure army is gunna hafta keep mowin' em down yeah j00 fools sux0r my uncircumsized penis you jewish cunts <@WinterKnight> l33t talk. Oh, the ph33r. <@WinterKnight> Get a clue. You're not gaining anything by making a joke of yourself in IRC channels. i vote to put an end to all the bullshit thats going on in your country, by getting along with your neighbours and putting your differences aside cos im sick of hearing about it on the news :) every night on the news, 'more violence in the middle east' if all that crap in the middleeast stopped, the sport would be on quicker they could pay more attention to the cricket, and the footy lol dwarf more important issues * You were kicked by Pita_Bot (Pita_Bot) * Attempting to rejoin... #israel Cannot send to channel ohh dear What the fuck is wrong with u middle easteners? j00 jews claim u want peace, then u turn around and vote for Ariel Sharon. The Palestinians have made it clear that its a major kick in the guts to the peace process, to depose of Barak in favour of a right wing nut like Sharon. Sharon will cripple the peace process, and this time there will be no brilliant American, peace maker, President to pull it out of the shit. Sharon, claims he can achieve peace with Palestine without the concessions that Barak is willing to make. Buuuullshit. Is he going to rely on his charm and charisma as a peace maker? I dooont think so. Is he going to shoot more Palestinian rock throwers? Yes. Is he going to try to beat Arafat into submission. Yes. Are the palestinains going to keep on fighting untill the last teenager lies dead in a bloody pool on the streets of Jerusalem? WTF do u think? The middle east won't earn a lasting peace, untill they give up something in return. "... theres no reason why a man and another man can't elope." - The Real Slim Shady - Eminem Gay Activits piss me off. Eminem is not homophobic! Where the fuck did anyone get the idea he hates fags. I listen to alot of Eminem (fuck off, he's good), and ive never heard anything even remotely derogatory towards gay ppl. In fact the only time i've even heard him mention homosexualty is in the above line in the real slim shady. Just because a non fag, refers to gays in a song doesnt make him homophobic... sheesh stop picking on Eminem my mate slim.
ExistAngst Tuesday, 6th February 2001	My Big Day Out: U be the Stein and i'll do the Ramm'ing. ????
I saw Rammstein at the Perth Big Day Out yesterday. Those guys must love touring outside of Germany. Till (The main Rammstein guy): "Ok boys... lets go out there, say some shit in German, pretend to piss on the audience, collect our fee and bugger off back home." Flake (Keyboardist): "Sweet sounds like a good plan." Till: "The best bit is that these anglo's will assume i'm singing about Hitler and Jews, without me having to actually sing about Hitler and Jews. That shit makes us hardcore." Richard (Guitar): "Yup. Even so, make sure u say lots of words that can be mistaken for "Jew" or "Hitler"". Till: "U c, Thats why we do so damn poorly at home, cause ppl know that were actually singing about flowers and fuzzy happy thoughts. " Flake: "Yair. What the fuck were u thinking when u wrote 'I love flowers, and beautifull spring days, hitler, hitler, jew, jew'. Lyrics like that were never gunna fly in Germany." (Pause) Flake:"We gunna do the gay sex thing tonight were u pretend to root me up the arse?" Till: "Yep. U'll be the 'stein' for me to 'ramm'". (everyone laughs) Till: "But seriously, ever since Hitler, to be German has become synonomous with being an agressive hardcore man fucker." Paul (Guitar): "What about Helmut Kohl? He's not a hardcore agressive man fucker!" Till: "Yup. Helmut represents the other popular German stereotype: The fat beer swilling, capitalist." Paul: "Ohh i c. Well maybe we should get Helmut on backup vocals then?" Till: "Wow. Cool idea. Ill give the Kohlster a call when we get home." The other bands at the BDO were good, but there weren't any as good as Rammstein. Rammstein were good, purely for non- musical reasons. When there on stage the're not about music so much as they are about theater. It doesn't matter. What matters is that the acting, the fireworks, the fire, the bright lights, the plastic penis props, the gay sex, the harcore german accents, all add up on top of the cool music and the heavy guitar riffs to leave something very entertaining. I almost feel dirty for finding it so entertaining but i am after all.... human. Of course the rest of the day wasnt a complete waste of time. Far from it..... The John Butler Trio, for example, were excellent. I swear i've never seen so many scragly old hippies together in the one place. John Butler himself is my idea of the archetypal 21st century hippy. Complete with activist rhetoric on the south west karri forrests and the liberal party, modest looking acoustic 12 string guitar, dreadies and bandana. Don't get me wrong, im not taking the piss. I really appreciate all that hippy shit. Its ppl like Butler that know that one person CAN make a difference. He's probably right. Most ppl probably even know hes right. Most ppl are just too lazy. Plus as a bonus, Butler looks a bit like Jesus from a distance if u imagine jesus with dreadies. I saw friendly and sonic animation in the boiler room. They were both good.... but its so obvious their not actually playing the music. One guy was holding a guitar, which i dont think i saw him strum once. Friendly himself just jumped around, and occasionally pressed a few buttons and sung. Not that i really have any problems with any of that. It would seem wrong to me to limit what u can produce in your studio music, just because u wont be able to reproduce it in a live setting. Nitocris were good cause the main ugly chick's got spunk and the other 3 chicks are cute as fuck. 28 Days, were good, except Jay's rap vocals didnt sound quite right. He seemed out of breath or something. Resin Dogs were good cause they do a great imitation of a spinning top. Powderfinger were good cause there Powderfinger. Coldplay were good cause they played some crap, then they played "Yellow" and everyone left. PJ Harvey was god cause some fat chick stading beside me said so Limp Bizkit were good cause they weren't there.

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